Tuesday, August 31, 2010

May I ask you...

Four weeks went by after the last time we were together.  It had been a month since you said I should move on since you can't give me what you perceive to be what I am looking for.  Good intentions...real and passionate desire...strong thighs...creative imagination...the master of his own food lab...impeccable sense of humor...that's what I'm looking for.  I don't know if that makes sense at all, but that's what it is.  Did you think the same way?

I couldn't help it.  A part of me says I shouldn't be communicating anymore, but a bigger part misses the late night talks, the goofing off, the thumb rubbing on my skin, the facial hair that causes my toes to curl up.   It's unbearably excruciating not to be able to experience these things again...

I was glad we finally got a chance on Sunday night.  I wore my sunglasses so I can hide the expression in my eyes.  I tried to look not too excited as my heart was racing.  My chest thumped wildly like a host of percussion beating out of rhythm.  It was temporary insanity, and I caved in as you reached out to hold me.  Then we kissed...I threw caution to the wind, couldn't care less if the world ended at that moment...

I didn't know...I never knew how it felt...

When writers try to essay the feeling of unfettered and blissful passion, I thought it was purely rhetorical, bordering on madness.  I said to myself, can it be this mundane?  But now, I get it...this weak-in-the-knees feeling...it was like some stellar phenomenon that had taken me off guard...I don't know why it had to happen, not when we have said goodbye...

I know this is not right to ask, but I need to be bold enough to ask you this nagging question...

Did you feel the same way too?


You don't have to answer that...but I'm content at letting you know.



I don't know what it is that you've done to me...
but it's caused me to act in such a crazy way.
Whatever it is that you do when you do what you're doing...
it's a feeling I don't understand

'Cause my heart starts beating triple time,
with thoughts of loving you on my mind.
I can't figure out just what to do,
when the cause and cure is you.

I get so weak in the knees I can hardly speak.
I lose all control and something takes over me.
In a daze you look so amazing,
it's not a phase, I want you to stay with me
by my side, I swallow my pride
your love is so sweet.
It knocks me right off of my feet....
I can't explain why your loving makes me weak.

Time after time after time I've tried to fight it.
But your love is strong it keeps on holding on.
Resistance is down when you're around, prides fading.
In my condition I don't want to be alone.

'Cause my heart starts beating triple time,
with thoughts of loving you on my mind.
I can't figure out just what to do,
when the cause and cure is you.

I get so weak in the knees I can hardly speak.
I lose all control and something takes over me.
In a daze you look so amazing,
it's not a phase, I want you to stay with me
by my side, I swallow my pride
your love is so sweet.
It knocks me right off of my feet....
I can't explain why your loving makes me weak.

I try hard to fight it.
No way can I deny it.
Your love's so sweet.
knocks me off my feet.

I get so weak in the knees I can hardly speak.
I lose all control and something takes over me.
In a daze you look so amazing,
it's not a phase, I want you to stay with me
by my side, I swallow my pride
your love is so sweet.
It knocks me right off of my feet....
I can't explain why your loving makes me weak.

I get so weak...
Blood starts racing through my veins
I get so weak...
Boy it's something I can't explain.
I get so weak...
Something 'bout the way you do
the things you do ooh ooh, it...
knocks me right off of my feet,
off of my feet.
Can't explain why your loving makes me weak.

I get so weak in the knees I can hardly speak.
I lose all control and something takes over me.
In a daze you look so amazing,
it's not a phase, I want you to stay with me
by my side, I swallow my pride
your love is so sweet.
It knocks me right off of my feet....
I can't explain why your loving makes me weak.