Friday, December 22, 2006
for whatever you do
baloo,
i found this video and if i had her voice and talent, i'd sing it to you with such ardour, pretty much like the way she did it. the song means a lot to me, to us, and that, the ladybug knows :) she bought a cd without me knowing...isn't that touching? she's getting stuff she knows that are dear to me. it's a way of keeping me "close" to her...and this is my way of keeping you close to me...
people come and go, give us a jolting experience, to say the least...but how can someone never seen, never heard, never touched move me this much? "but when did common sense prevail for lovers when they know, they never will..."
you say, "for whatever you do..." why? will you come for me? when? you don't know...we don't know...but love stays 'whatever we do'...sounds really great...unconsummated, yet all-consuming...unrequited, yet giving...distant, yet immeasurable...
"impossible to live with you..." but to stay feeling this way, i will.
love always, joyce
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
my favorite sin
"vanity, my favorite sin..."
well, only once in a while...and today i feel the need to be vain.
i must say that the past 38 (almost) years of my life had been pretty colorful, having a lot of lessons learned and quite a lot more to pay attention to. sometimes i stop in recollection and think about who i am, because i may be drowning in a quagmire of colorful events, and in the process, forget who i really am and the things that i believe in. sometimes, i tend to become a pushover, my kindness being mistaken for stupidity...but hey, i can be like a leaf that would ride with tide, or a rock that stands firm against it.
today i sat down and asked myself who am i. the big things are easy to remember, but the miniscule memories of the past hidden in a pocket full of youthful adventures are those that keep me standing firmly on the ground. as i recounted each one of them, i couldn't help but smile at my idiosyncracies, ambivalence and recklessness. i remember old friends, has beens and even those whom my relationships with never worked out.
why didn't i do this before? what accounts for the delay could be due to my perceived insignificant existence. so i thought, am i that insignificant? i guess not. i have and had a large share of problems and heartaches too. today, after an emotional day in school, i feel like basking in memories of my past, indulging in a bit of vanity to make me feel a tad better. now to those who'd stumble upon this, i'm not trying to sell myself. i'm homesick, tired, distraught, single ( i just severed a budding relationship) and bored. allow me to introduce myself...
1. joyce jimenez is the name of a beautiful, sexy filipina actress. my 3rd year-D class (4 years ago) in DLSZ started it all. they called me joyce because to all of my students, i'm ms. jimenez. the batch after that continued the "tradition" and hence found a more profound meaning for "sexy".
2. i'm the eldest of 4 children, once referred to by my dad as the black sheep and the under achiever.
3. as a kid, i used to dress up like Super G while my sister impersonated Darna...kung hindi kayo pinoy, di nyo sila kilala.
4. the very first movie i saw in a movie house was Gorgo. the second was Saturday Night Fever at the Harrison Plaza. i remember i was 7 years old that time and i couldn't forget how infatuated i was with john travolta.
5. i was crazy over metal lunch boxes and the first one i had was a gift from my grandfather. it was a classic, flip top lunch box and although it was made of hard plastic, i loved it dearly because it was my first, it had Snoopy stickers on it, and it was yellow. my second lunch box was made of metal and had vinnie barbarino on it. my staples: hardboiled egg and calamansi juice.
6. i watched voltes 5 every friday afternoon.
i couldn't remember exactly what day daimos and mazinger z were shown, but i watched them too. did i mention star rangers? i remember imagining myself as erika while my crush-turned-nightmare was richard :)
7. i had an avid "fan" when i was in 3rd grade who wrote me in the list of noisy students in class if i refused to talk to him during study period. and since i never learned my lesson, i ended up staying after school to clean up with the cleaners for the day... oh how i hated him!
8. i got c's and d's in high school math. that's why i took up engineering in college at a reputable engineering school and taught math 7 years after. my skills were developed in college though, as i usually did a boyfriend's homework. thank God he was lazy.
9. when i was 19, i got bitten by a japanese spitz because of my friend's lack of common sense.
10. i used to be a 36-25-36 and had great looking legs. don't ask me what happened.
11. the very first novel i read was the Godfather, but i have always loved Memoirs of a Geisha.
12. i love kare-kareng buntot ng baka with tripes and adobo. ofcourse, di masarap ang kare-kare kung walang bagoong. and not to forget, paksiw na bangus :)
13. i'm a scatter brain...and i work best when things are scattered. but of course i get organized too.
14. i have an 11-yr old daughter who likes Eric Clapton, harry potter, wrestling and ballet (not necessarily in that order).
15. although my stay in la salle wasn't too long, it's the institution i love most.
16. i'm a weeper and a sucker for love stories. i remember when Rico Yan died, i always cried whenever i saw his image on tv, the tabloids, etc. i used to see him around at the taft campus and i couldn't forget that he smiled at me each time i bumped into him.
17. when i was in college, my hair was always cropped very short. once, due to the hairdresser's ineptness, she trimmed it too short...how's 1 cm? but i was really conscious about my hair, that after that mishap, i had a private hairdresser who also worked as a columnist for Woman Today and Manila Standard. he once gave me a nice haircut, shaved my nape to shape like the mcdonald's arches, made me pose here and there and ...there i was...had my pictures published in one of the november weekend issues of the Manila Standard in 1989.
18. i worked as a McDonald's crew member in 1987and resigned 7 months after. i trained as a drive thru and counter person at the Greenbelt and northmall branches respectively. may QUAD pa noon at mistulang parke pa lang ang glorietta. remember the big cinderella boutique alongside goodwill bookstore fronting glorietta? it had the biggest mcdonald's branch then. we used to wear maroon colored uniform with white pinstripes and the white visor on our heads to keep hair from falling off. di pa gumagamit ng plastic bags noon sa mcdo and service was really fast.
19. anything unconventional catches my eye.
20. i love dressing up.
21. when i started studying in Mapua in 1985, my pocket money then was only P20 ($0.40), which later on increased to P30 ($0.60) by the time i graduated in 1990.
22. inabot ko pa ang panahong P0.25 lang ang pamasahe at P0.30 ang hulog sa payphone. madalas ako'ng makipag telebabad noon sa boypren kong hilaw kaya naranasan ko'ng kabugin ako ng mga nakapila sa payphone hehehe.
23. the very first LP album (long playing a.k.a. 33 rpm records) that i bought for myself was Air Supply's, the very first cd was Chuck Mangione's.
24. the first song i learned to play on the guitar was Sharon Cuneta's High School Life (ang baduy).
25. my first kiss landed on my right temple...and i felt like fainting afterwards!
26. i know how to cook good food, specially for a loved one.
27. i'm allergic to smoke. once i tried smoking a stick of cigarette (this was 1st yr college), i got hospitalized for asthma. never tried it again since.
28. i have a penchant for cute smiles, yung mga maginoo pero medyo bastos :) i also love good conversations, snuggling and... i would be a hypocrite if i'd say i don't get smitten by good looks. but believe me, if you don't have anything sensible in between your ears, sayang ang good looks mo, itago mo na lang. i easily fall for men who can carry a good conversation, are witty and sensitive.
29. i also have a penchant for trucks and SUVs. i guess it's because i used to work at a forwarding company where i was always tasked to go to the manila port area, north and south. i experienced riding a prime mover and have always dreamt since to have one like that inside my garage :)
30. i believe in sta clause, in miracles and i hope to stay in love with teaching despite the atrocities i've been experiencing.
31. there was a time when i would go to Hard Rock cafe in Malate (which eventually closed as it was not a franchise) 3 times a week, almost remembered the repertoire of the MTV display and became a connoisseur drinker. i could distinguish one brandy from another, befriended Jack Daniels and Jose Cuervo, and could down a chilled San Miguel Super Dry to the last drop in one drinking. excuse me, di po ako lashengga *hik*.
32. i love going to fancy restaurants. one place i could not forget is the Sky Lounge of the Manila Diamond Hotel. you know why? aside from the magnificent view of the Roxas Boulevard boardwalk and the Manila Bay sunset from the 27th floor, i had the privelege to have dined and wined with two of the men i loved dearly...my daughter's dad and, in another occasion, Ray Briones.
33. i love shoes and watches :) i used to be a size 7, but my feet got bigger after giving birth and i'm now an 8 or 8.5.
34. i'm a good matchmaker but have not found the right one for me (or i may have found him, but he hasn't found me yet...labo).
35. for clothing, i'm a young dresser. though i like black, white and pink, i also go for shades of brown, green, purple, and sometimes blue.
that was fun :) there's still quite a lot, but i'd reserve that for YOU who might want to know me more. now if you're interested, talk to me, i could use a friend :)
PS. Sir Rolly is right, might as well add 3 more to account for all 38 years of my life! here goes...
36. as a kid, i was allowed to go out to play with neighbors and friends early in the morning and even late at night. we used to have a little playhouse that my uncle built, a hut made of bamboo slats. i enjoyed playing bahay bahayan, playing mom and cooking leaves. one time, i remember getting stung by a bee on my hip when i inadvertently hit it while playing hide-and-seek. i also remember feeling very sad and sorry for the unhatched eggs that our pet pigeon deliberately dropped as i snooped around its nest...tsk-tsk-tsk i didn't know i shouldn't do that.
37. i got married in 1995, separated in 2004, divorced in 2006.
38. when Mcsi died in 2004, i didn't know why God had to put me in that situation being his teacher and one of the persons he saw last. now, i realized, He had to put me through all that to prepare me for things seemingly more difficult to bear and are yet to come.
there, i've completed all 38 :)
well, only once in a while...and today i feel the need to be vain.
i must say that the past 38 (almost) years of my life had been pretty colorful, having a lot of lessons learned and quite a lot more to pay attention to. sometimes i stop in recollection and think about who i am, because i may be drowning in a quagmire of colorful events, and in the process, forget who i really am and the things that i believe in. sometimes, i tend to become a pushover, my kindness being mistaken for stupidity...but hey, i can be like a leaf that would ride with tide, or a rock that stands firm against it.
today i sat down and asked myself who am i. the big things are easy to remember, but the miniscule memories of the past hidden in a pocket full of youthful adventures are those that keep me standing firmly on the ground. as i recounted each one of them, i couldn't help but smile at my idiosyncracies, ambivalence and recklessness. i remember old friends, has beens and even those whom my relationships with never worked out.
why didn't i do this before? what accounts for the delay could be due to my perceived insignificant existence. so i thought, am i that insignificant? i guess not. i have and had a large share of problems and heartaches too. today, after an emotional day in school, i feel like basking in memories of my past, indulging in a bit of vanity to make me feel a tad better. now to those who'd stumble upon this, i'm not trying to sell myself. i'm homesick, tired, distraught, single ( i just severed a budding relationship) and bored. allow me to introduce myself...
1. joyce jimenez is the name of a beautiful, sexy filipina actress. my 3rd year-D class (4 years ago) in DLSZ started it all. they called me joyce because to all of my students, i'm ms. jimenez. the batch after that continued the "tradition" and hence found a more profound meaning for "sexy".
2. i'm the eldest of 4 children, once referred to by my dad as the black sheep and the under achiever.
3. as a kid, i used to dress up like Super G while my sister impersonated Darna...kung hindi kayo pinoy, di nyo sila kilala.
4. the very first movie i saw in a movie house was Gorgo. the second was Saturday Night Fever at the Harrison Plaza. i remember i was 7 years old that time and i couldn't forget how infatuated i was with john travolta.
5. i was crazy over metal lunch boxes and the first one i had was a gift from my grandfather. it was a classic, flip top lunch box and although it was made of hard plastic, i loved it dearly because it was my first, it had Snoopy stickers on it, and it was yellow. my second lunch box was made of metal and had vinnie barbarino on it. my staples: hardboiled egg and calamansi juice.
6. i watched voltes 5 every friday afternoon.
i couldn't remember exactly what day daimos and mazinger z were shown, but i watched them too. did i mention star rangers? i remember imagining myself as erika while my crush-turned-nightmare was richard :)
7. i had an avid "fan" when i was in 3rd grade who wrote me in the list of noisy students in class if i refused to talk to him during study period. and since i never learned my lesson, i ended up staying after school to clean up with the cleaners for the day... oh how i hated him!
8. i got c's and d's in high school math. that's why i took up engineering in college at a reputable engineering school and taught math 7 years after. my skills were developed in college though, as i usually did a boyfriend's homework. thank God he was lazy.
9. when i was 19, i got bitten by a japanese spitz because of my friend's lack of common sense.
10. i used to be a 36-25-36 and had great looking legs. don't ask me what happened.
11. the very first novel i read was the Godfather, but i have always loved Memoirs of a Geisha.
12. i love kare-kareng buntot ng baka with tripes and adobo. ofcourse, di masarap ang kare-kare kung walang bagoong. and not to forget, paksiw na bangus :)
13. i'm a scatter brain...and i work best when things are scattered. but of course i get organized too.
14. i have an 11-yr old daughter who likes Eric Clapton, harry potter, wrestling and ballet (not necessarily in that order).
15. although my stay in la salle wasn't too long, it's the institution i love most.
16. i'm a weeper and a sucker for love stories. i remember when Rico Yan died, i always cried whenever i saw his image on tv, the tabloids, etc. i used to see him around at the taft campus and i couldn't forget that he smiled at me each time i bumped into him.
17. when i was in college, my hair was always cropped very short. once, due to the hairdresser's ineptness, she trimmed it too short...how's 1 cm? but i was really conscious about my hair, that after that mishap, i had a private hairdresser who also worked as a columnist for Woman Today and Manila Standard. he once gave me a nice haircut, shaved my nape to shape like the mcdonald's arches, made me pose here and there and ...there i was...had my pictures published in one of the november weekend issues of the Manila Standard in 1989.
18. i worked as a McDonald's crew member in 1987and resigned 7 months after. i trained as a drive thru and counter person at the Greenbelt and northmall branches respectively. may QUAD pa noon at mistulang parke pa lang ang glorietta. remember the big cinderella boutique alongside goodwill bookstore fronting glorietta? it had the biggest mcdonald's branch then. we used to wear maroon colored uniform with white pinstripes and the white visor on our heads to keep hair from falling off. di pa gumagamit ng plastic bags noon sa mcdo and service was really fast.
19. anything unconventional catches my eye.
20. i love dressing up.
21. when i started studying in Mapua in 1985, my pocket money then was only P20 ($0.40), which later on increased to P30 ($0.60) by the time i graduated in 1990.
22. inabot ko pa ang panahong P0.25 lang ang pamasahe at P0.30 ang hulog sa payphone. madalas ako'ng makipag telebabad noon sa boypren kong hilaw kaya naranasan ko'ng kabugin ako ng mga nakapila sa payphone hehehe.
23. the very first LP album (long playing a.k.a. 33 rpm records) that i bought for myself was Air Supply's, the very first cd was Chuck Mangione's.
24. the first song i learned to play on the guitar was Sharon Cuneta's High School Life (ang baduy).
25. my first kiss landed on my right temple...and i felt like fainting afterwards!
26. i know how to cook good food, specially for a loved one.
27. i'm allergic to smoke. once i tried smoking a stick of cigarette (this was 1st yr college), i got hospitalized for asthma. never tried it again since.
28. i have a penchant for cute smiles, yung mga maginoo pero medyo bastos :) i also love good conversations, snuggling and... i would be a hypocrite if i'd say i don't get smitten by good looks. but believe me, if you don't have anything sensible in between your ears, sayang ang good looks mo, itago mo na lang. i easily fall for men who can carry a good conversation, are witty and sensitive.
29. i also have a penchant for trucks and SUVs. i guess it's because i used to work at a forwarding company where i was always tasked to go to the manila port area, north and south. i experienced riding a prime mover and have always dreamt since to have one like that inside my garage :)
30. i believe in sta clause, in miracles and i hope to stay in love with teaching despite the atrocities i've been experiencing.
31. there was a time when i would go to Hard Rock cafe in Malate (which eventually closed as it was not a franchise) 3 times a week, almost remembered the repertoire of the MTV display and became a connoisseur drinker. i could distinguish one brandy from another, befriended Jack Daniels and Jose Cuervo, and could down a chilled San Miguel Super Dry to the last drop in one drinking. excuse me, di po ako lashengga *hik*.
32. i love going to fancy restaurants. one place i could not forget is the Sky Lounge of the Manila Diamond Hotel. you know why? aside from the magnificent view of the Roxas Boulevard boardwalk and the Manila Bay sunset from the 27th floor, i had the privelege to have dined and wined with two of the men i loved dearly...my daughter's dad and, in another occasion, Ray Briones.
33. i love shoes and watches :) i used to be a size 7, but my feet got bigger after giving birth and i'm now an 8 or 8.5.
34. i'm a good matchmaker but have not found the right one for me (or i may have found him, but he hasn't found me yet...labo).
35. for clothing, i'm a young dresser. though i like black, white and pink, i also go for shades of brown, green, purple, and sometimes blue.
that was fun :) there's still quite a lot, but i'd reserve that for YOU who might want to know me more. now if you're interested, talk to me, i could use a friend :)
PS. Sir Rolly is right, might as well add 3 more to account for all 38 years of my life! here goes...
36. as a kid, i was allowed to go out to play with neighbors and friends early in the morning and even late at night. we used to have a little playhouse that my uncle built, a hut made of bamboo slats. i enjoyed playing bahay bahayan, playing mom and cooking leaves. one time, i remember getting stung by a bee on my hip when i inadvertently hit it while playing hide-and-seek. i also remember feeling very sad and sorry for the unhatched eggs that our pet pigeon deliberately dropped as i snooped around its nest...tsk-tsk-tsk i didn't know i shouldn't do that.
37. i got married in 1995, separated in 2004, divorced in 2006.
38. when Mcsi died in 2004, i didn't know why God had to put me in that situation being his teacher and one of the persons he saw last. now, i realized, He had to put me through all that to prepare me for things seemingly more difficult to bear and are yet to come.
there, i've completed all 38 :)
Saturday, December 09, 2006
i'll never love this way again
i'll never love this way again
this burt bacharach song was popularized decades ago by dione warwick, but regine's version, i must say, is simply fantastic.
when i worked at the callcenter, my team had a
way of de-stressing ourselves...we sang and communicated to each other through songs that the infamous john sion (or johnxion as we fondly call him), otherwise known as the concert king, would sing out of key, complete with shoulders jerking, a hand raised up in the air to copy the inimitable songbird of the philippines ...a comic relief, a liberating way to placate feelings of perturbation and anger over cussing customers. so i guess i'd safely say that this was our "team" song while i was still with them.
i miss you guys. i can't forget our last day together when you sang this. it broke my heart to leave you, but mommy rhea will always remember.
this burt bacharach song was popularized decades ago by dione warwick, but regine's version, i must say, is simply fantastic.
when i worked at the callcenter, my team had a
way of de-stressing ourselves...we sang and communicated to each other through songs that the infamous john sion (or johnxion as we fondly call him), otherwise known as the concert king, would sing out of key, complete with shoulders jerking, a hand raised up in the air to copy the inimitable songbird of the philippines ...a comic relief, a liberating way to placate feelings of perturbation and anger over cussing customers. so i guess i'd safely say that this was our "team" song while i was still with them.
i miss you guys. i can't forget our last day together when you sang this. it broke my heart to leave you, but mommy rhea will always remember.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
tis written for me...
as angels cry, blood and life ravaged,
heading whirled psyches to destruction
leads me back to the bleak grounds of dry furrows,
to a world beyond the hands of obscurity
from seeping withered scowls come
the shackles of misery
chafing my heart's silent lesions
whilst time meanders like mantras skewing the ears
and dealing dour hours destined to fill eternity
you are bound to ascend to where the clouds reign,
my Magdalene
a woman no one, but I , can ever set free
faint for me
and I shall make you breathe a new life-
for your blood is my wine
your body, my earth
your breath, my air
and your life-
my fire...
i am burning for you,
my Magdalene
i am burning for you
- JRS
heading whirled psyches to destruction
leads me back to the bleak grounds of dry furrows,
to a world beyond the hands of obscurity
from seeping withered scowls come
the shackles of misery
chafing my heart's silent lesions
whilst time meanders like mantras skewing the ears
and dealing dour hours destined to fill eternity
you are bound to ascend to where the clouds reign,
my Magdalene
a woman no one, but I , can ever set free
faint for me
and I shall make you breathe a new life-
for your blood is my wine
your body, my earth
your breath, my air
and your life-
my fire...
i am burning for you,
my Magdalene
i am burning for you
- JRS
Sunday, November 19, 2006
to move in or not to move in, that is the question
some weeks back, this guy that i've dated asked if i can move in with him. being new in this culture, i was surprised and didn't know exactly how to react. i didn't think i'd get such an offer ever in my life. look, it's not the same as a marriage proposal and so therefore, i had to think hard about how to react lest i might say something that i'd regret in the future.
i thought really long and hard, and although this type of proposal seem normal to this culture due to the very busy lifestyles that people live, my emotions battled with my pride, my wants with my values. since my divorce, i keep my vulnerability in check and am now more careful not to jump the gun. i've had mistakes, tried to redeem myself by doing the right thing, but i ended up losing a few things here and there. and so i thought, better not to let emotions overwhelm me, to think of repercussions than be merry now and suffer greater heartaches later.
and so you may have guessed it, i told him that i can't move in with him. i gave him very specific reasons and just today, i gave him another set because today, i said goodbye. we rarely had time for each other, he got back to me saying that's one of the reasons why he made the offer. he knew all long that he'd be busy, doing two jobs at a time, and shifting from his current job to a new one. it looks like it's my fault that we didn't have time to be together, but i don't feel that way at all. and at the back of my mind, i know there's another reason why our days together dwindled...well that's another story.
moving in with someone sounds really fun and exciting, but minus the commitment, for me, it spells H-E-A-R-T-A-C-H-E. if i'd be in that situation, it'll be comfortable to have someone right next to me to satisfy my needs without strings attached. no need to exert any effort at all. that'll render the person expendable and without commitment, if the other person screws up (pardon the colorful language my dear students), i can easily have a backdoor and slip out of a relationship just like that. very convenient huh?
but i'm not taking it against him that this happened to us. he has his reasons, this is the culture he grew up with. i'm not saying that he's wrong and that i'm right. it's just that the things i value are different from his. and who knows? if we were together, things could have worked out fine and he and i are now probably doing great as a couple...so probably i'm wrong that i didn't give it a chance...
the bottom line is, i thought of how that situation would fit into my value system. i'm not perfect and i don't smell like a rose either, so my set of values and friends help me make decisions that will not only do good for me, but for other people as well.
two weeks and i'll be over this, you'll see :)
meantime, i'll look for this Kingdom Hearts DVD featuring Captain Jack Sparrow :)
i thought really long and hard, and although this type of proposal seem normal to this culture due to the very busy lifestyles that people live, my emotions battled with my pride, my wants with my values. since my divorce, i keep my vulnerability in check and am now more careful not to jump the gun. i've had mistakes, tried to redeem myself by doing the right thing, but i ended up losing a few things here and there. and so i thought, better not to let emotions overwhelm me, to think of repercussions than be merry now and suffer greater heartaches later.
and so you may have guessed it, i told him that i can't move in with him. i gave him very specific reasons and just today, i gave him another set because today, i said goodbye. we rarely had time for each other, he got back to me saying that's one of the reasons why he made the offer. he knew all long that he'd be busy, doing two jobs at a time, and shifting from his current job to a new one. it looks like it's my fault that we didn't have time to be together, but i don't feel that way at all. and at the back of my mind, i know there's another reason why our days together dwindled...well that's another story.
moving in with someone sounds really fun and exciting, but minus the commitment, for me, it spells H-E-A-R-T-A-C-H-E. if i'd be in that situation, it'll be comfortable to have someone right next to me to satisfy my needs without strings attached. no need to exert any effort at all. that'll render the person expendable and without commitment, if the other person screws up (pardon the colorful language my dear students), i can easily have a backdoor and slip out of a relationship just like that. very convenient huh?
but i'm not taking it against him that this happened to us. he has his reasons, this is the culture he grew up with. i'm not saying that he's wrong and that i'm right. it's just that the things i value are different from his. and who knows? if we were together, things could have worked out fine and he and i are now probably doing great as a couple...so probably i'm wrong that i didn't give it a chance...
the bottom line is, i thought of how that situation would fit into my value system. i'm not perfect and i don't smell like a rose either, so my set of values and friends help me make decisions that will not only do good for me, but for other people as well.
two weeks and i'll be over this, you'll see :)
meantime, i'll look for this Kingdom Hearts DVD featuring Captain Jack Sparrow :)
Saturday, November 18, 2006
lusty over red?
last week, a co teacher was telling a story about how her husband got so hot after seeing red sheets covering the matrimonial bed. she said he found it so sexy that he pulled her to bed right there and then, and ofcourse, you know what happened next.
she continued saying she remembered once when she was still single, there was a time when men, a lot of men, dated her. it was a bad thing because those men just wanted one thing: to bed her. and so one day, she visited a friend who's a feng shui master and she candidly told her experiences, believing there could be something mystical going on. true enough, the feng shui master asked her if she was using red sheets to which she said yes. she was advised that red sheets gave her a hottie aura and naturally attracted the men with the wrong intentions. furthermore, being single, she was told to put the red sheet on the bottom mattress and put pink over the top mattress to dissipate the "hotness" and bring romance instead.
hmmm i'm not a feng shui fanatic, but the imp within is pushing me to do some laundry...i've red sheets! hahahaha
she continued saying she remembered once when she was still single, there was a time when men, a lot of men, dated her. it was a bad thing because those men just wanted one thing: to bed her. and so one day, she visited a friend who's a feng shui master and she candidly told her experiences, believing there could be something mystical going on. true enough, the feng shui master asked her if she was using red sheets to which she said yes. she was advised that red sheets gave her a hottie aura and naturally attracted the men with the wrong intentions. furthermore, being single, she was told to put the red sheet on the bottom mattress and put pink over the top mattress to dissipate the "hotness" and bring romance instead.
hmmm i'm not a feng shui fanatic, but the imp within is pushing me to do some laundry...i've red sheets! hahahaha
Thursday, November 16, 2006
river
today, i felt so distraught with how one student has been dealing with me. it's been 9 harrowing weeks, only because of him. one time he was suspended, the class he's in, all of a sudden, was totally different. this morning, i had to deal with his objectionable ways again, but this time, i knew i had it with him. i cried when the students were gone, i felt weary and frustrated.
so when i went home, i stopped by starbucks, grabbed a venti cafe americano with hazelnut, coupled it with a slice of lemon loaf and treated myself to a christmas songs cd entitled Santa Baby. it's got elvis presley, frank sinatra, nat king cole, tony bennett, ella fitzgerald, dean martin, diana krall, billie holiday, sarah mclachlan, etc. well, i bought it primarily because it's quite uncommon to find elvis in a compilation cd like this; second, i like the repertoire and the voices. so i parked in front of our house, turned up the volume of the player, and sat there sloshing my drink away. i relaxed my mind while i looked up the dark gray sky, and just enjoyed the music, the coffee, the pastry, and the time that i'm alone. when i was down to my last sip, i called overseas to my daughter, woke her up (she's going to school anyway) and told her how much i miss her, how much i want to hug her, hold her tight. told her i love her very much...heard her sleepy voice...a priceless moment...that mitigated the pain. i felt relieved.
here's the first cut in the cd. i want to share it with whoever. i like it of all the songs in that complation. it's called river.
It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don’t snow here
It stays pretty green
I’m going to make a lot of money
And then I’m going to quit this crazy scene
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
Teach my feet to fly high
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry
I tried hard to help me
No it wouldn’t be at ease
But it left me so naughty made me weak in the knees
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But I’m so hard to handle
I’m selfish and I’m sad
Now I gone and lost the best baby that I’ve ever had
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
Oh I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly high
Oh I wish I had a river
That I could skate away on
I made my baby say goodbye
It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
[ these lyrics found on www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
so when i went home, i stopped by starbucks, grabbed a venti cafe americano with hazelnut, coupled it with a slice of lemon loaf and treated myself to a christmas songs cd entitled Santa Baby. it's got elvis presley, frank sinatra, nat king cole, tony bennett, ella fitzgerald, dean martin, diana krall, billie holiday, sarah mclachlan, etc. well, i bought it primarily because it's quite uncommon to find elvis in a compilation cd like this; second, i like the repertoire and the voices. so i parked in front of our house, turned up the volume of the player, and sat there sloshing my drink away. i relaxed my mind while i looked up the dark gray sky, and just enjoyed the music, the coffee, the pastry, and the time that i'm alone. when i was down to my last sip, i called overseas to my daughter, woke her up (she's going to school anyway) and told her how much i miss her, how much i want to hug her, hold her tight. told her i love her very much...heard her sleepy voice...a priceless moment...that mitigated the pain. i felt relieved.
here's the first cut in the cd. i want to share it with whoever. i like it of all the songs in that complation. it's called river.
It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don’t snow here
It stays pretty green
I’m going to make a lot of money
And then I’m going to quit this crazy scene
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
Teach my feet to fly high
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry
I tried hard to help me
No it wouldn’t be at ease
But it left me so naughty made me weak in the knees
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But I’m so hard to handle
I’m selfish and I’m sad
Now I gone and lost the best baby that I’ve ever had
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
Oh I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly high
Oh I wish I had a river
That I could skate away on
I made my baby say goodbye
It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
[ these lyrics found on www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Monday, November 13, 2006
kids say the darnest things
Part 1
one week before i left for the US, my daughter and i went to alabang town center. after getting off the taxi, we went up a flight of stairs to one of the main entrances. before we reached the automatic sliding door, i saw an ex-boyfriend (he's an artista, boy next door image, mind you) coming out of the door together with his sister. "WHAT THE..." i said to myself, and before i can order my legs to walk towards the other direction, (i felt sort of embarassed that he'd see me in this plump state) he went past me, glanced towards my direction (he probably thought it was deja vu...hello??? i'm your ex, honey!) and continued walking. here's the conversation that followed between me and my daughter, after that brief encounter:
joyce: Jace, did you see that tall and cute guy in black shirt who went past us?
jace: yes, you know him?
joyce: yup, he's an ex-boyfriend
jace: ma??? really???
joyce: u-huh! but the relationship was shortlived
jace: (after 5 minutes or so) ma? siguro mas maganda ako kung iba naging tatay ko? ano sa palagay mo?
joyce: haaay...hindi ako mapalagay! (ngek)
Part 2
last april, i spent most of my days sleeping over at my sister's. being a call center agent then, i slept during the day. i found it difficult to sleep at home when my younger cousins were there on vacation. my nephew, though he too was on vacation, would normally be downstairs, blasting away his opponents with his PS2 gadget, so that my sister's bedroom would normally be empty. i slept there most of the time, but one day, the 7-yr old tyke decided to take a nap in his parents' bedroom, beside me.
that day, for some reason, i decided to leave early for work. since i thought my crazy inaanak was still sound asleep, i dressed up in that same bedroom, my back facing him. i had my pants and my bra on, i was about to put on my shirt when i heard a shriek behind me:
"NINANG!!! may boobs ka sa likod!!!" immediately, i pulled down my shirt, sat on the bed, then i heard a follow-up shriek, "Naku!!! nagiging apat pag umupo ka!"
"Lapastangan kang bata ka...TULOG!"
darn those love handles! but as the cliche goes, kids don't lie.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Never, Never, Never
Some things are better said in a song.
I'd like to run away from you,
but if you never found me I would die
I'd like to break the chains you put around me,
but I know I never will
You stay away and all I do is wonder why the hell I wait for you
But when did common sense prevail
for lovers when we know it never will
Impossible to live with you,
but I know, I could never live without you
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
You never treat me like you should,
so what's the good of loving as I do?
Although you always laugh at love,
nothing else would be good enough for you
Impossible to live with you, but I know,
I could never live without you
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
You make me laugh, you make me cry,
you make me live, you make me die for you
You make me sing, you make me sad,
you make me glad, you make me mad for you
I love you, hate you, love you, hate you
But I'll want you til the world stops turning
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
I love you, hate you,
love you, hate you
But I'll want you till the world stops turning
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
I love you, hate you, love you, hate you
But I'll want you till the world stops turning
For whatever you do I never, never,
never want to be in love with anyone but you.
I hope you find contentment in the path you chose. I'm sorry, I can't traipse down that path with you, not anymore, but i'll be around to strengthen your spirit so you'd stay in that direction.
I'd like to run away from you,
but if you never found me I would die
I'd like to break the chains you put around me,
but I know I never will
You stay away and all I do is wonder why the hell I wait for you
But when did common sense prevail
for lovers when we know it never will
Impossible to live with you,
but I know, I could never live without you
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
You never treat me like you should,
so what's the good of loving as I do?
Although you always laugh at love,
nothing else would be good enough for you
Impossible to live with you, but I know,
I could never live without you
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
You make me laugh, you make me cry,
you make me live, you make me die for you
You make me sing, you make me sad,
you make me glad, you make me mad for you
I love you, hate you, love you, hate you
But I'll want you til the world stops turning
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
I love you, hate you,
love you, hate you
But I'll want you till the world stops turning
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love
with anyone but you
I love you, hate you, love you, hate you
But I'll want you till the world stops turning
For whatever you do I never, never,
never want to be in love with anyone but you.
I hope you find contentment in the path you chose. I'm sorry, I can't traipse down that path with you, not anymore, but i'll be around to strengthen your spirit so you'd stay in that direction.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
from Jack, to Jack
when i was still in manila, someone named Jack e-mailed me an mp3 of this song. never met the person, but i got to like the song.
to Jack, thanks.
and for my special friend, Jack...
i'm enjoying you and your company...i wonder how far this friendship would go...
Sunday, September 10, 2006
at long last...
it's more than a month now since i set foot here in virginia beach city (one time i was with my roommate, i blurted out something like ang daming onaks ano? and she gave me this strange look...hey, got any sense of humor???). due to some financial constraints, i got a late booking and had to pass through san francisco. i took that as an opportunity to be with my relatives, and as the song goes, i left part of my heart there :)
as always, the weather was fine though cloudy; nippy but i really enjoyed it. could have been better if i was with someone dear to me (like my daughter Jacinth) to hold hands with and hug while enjoying the maginificent view. on the other side of the bridge is romantic sausalito...exotic view, great food, beautiful flora. spent 3 days in california, but i really wish i could spend christmas and winter break there.
after hayward, i headed for springfield missouri where our agent is located. Ate Becs, as we fondly call her, made us stay in their staff house (a large house with p
lenty of rooms) and there in Brad Pitts' birthplace i learned how to differentiate a penny from a nickel, a dime and a quarter by doing self check out at the local Wal-Mart. it was a neat experience and believe me, it is only just recently that i feel quite comfortable using these loose change as i can now remember their face value. my new found friends and i also visited a Hooters branch there in springfield. well, contrary to the common belief of those who are in RP, Hoooters is a place where they serve tasty chicken breasts and wings =) so what were you thinking?after 1 week of getting acclimated (actually, the weather in springfield was extremely warm i had cold sore on my lips), the 5 teachers, one husband and the Ate Becs-Kuya Rolly-tandem decided to drive up to Virginia beach. On the average, they
said, that it should not take us more than 17 hours to drive. however, due to congestion towards the tunnel, it took us about 20 hours to get to the Mantes' place. Ang sakit sa katawan! but i say i may have to do that again sooner or later, i mean drive up to another state. it actually is pretty convenient with the nice, paved roads and clean rest areas. sabi nga ni Kuya Rolly, it's part of the average american's life to travel, cross country. not that i have become like them, but if one has a good vehicle and the roads are fine, travelling is actually fun with the right company and a good set of maps (thanks to mapquest hehehe).
i now am sharing a room with another Filipino teacher at the Reuyans' and Ate Pearly's house. here is a picture of the house where I live. it's just so nice waking up to the view of tall, coniferous trees. the sight gives a calming effect especially after a day of dealing with very difficult kids in school. and speaking of school, i somehow have adjusted to the system here, finding each day passing quite so fast, that before you know it, the week's over, TGIF, at sweldo na naman! without having to sound mate
rialistic, i'd say pay day comes pretty fast perhaps because of the very quick pace and busy lifestyle we have here. and contrary to what friends back home think of the kind of work we do here, we are as busy, and work seems as endless as before. the only difference is that one gets to enjoy his/her earnings more than when one is in the Philippines. for me, enjoying my earnings means being able to share it with my folks and my daughter. i am also more capable of buying the things i like, things that we may consider extras, capricho, and yet still able to save some for the rainy days. the pay for teachers is not that high, but it's enough to pay the bills, to feed and clothe oneself, share some to relatives back home...
virginia beach is a very nice place, it somehow reminds me of Ayala Alabang in the midst of Baguio City, only it's a lot larger than the posh subdivision. conducive for raising a family, it's pretty laid back, conservative and if one is tired of the hustle and bustle of new york, virginia beach is a place for 
respite and recluse. the place where i stay is like 15 miles away from the oceanfront. good place to jog, or simply stroll with a loved one =) it's a haven for those who want to bask under the sun while still expecting some snow in winter, crimson and golden foliage in the fall that turns green in spring, and some intermittent rain after summer. if i'd be given a chance, i would love to stay here.two weeks ago, i went to new york to visit my friend abbey who's lucky to have found a place to stay with former co-teachers and friends leovie, husband froi, jun & jing rupanyana. more than enjoying the subway ride, the stroll down times square, i was very happy reconnecting with friends whom i last saw 2 years ago! i just love the company of these people, genuine and very kind individuals, friends one will truly miss. here are a few of the pictures we took while i was there. i know zobel peeps would appreciate these :)
the motley crew
toys r us
leovie's and froi's love nest (the baby is theirs)
subway gang
ang gaganda!
so far, i'm coping well. if an erring student won't abide, there's always the telephone to call security =)
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Praying Feet
have you seen feet that pray? =)
after so long a time of being in hiatus, and after resigning from work to prepare for my work abroad, thought of going back to my blogkadahan
for this month (or so), check out our website and see how this group pray with our feet hehehe yup! we've got actual pictures of our feet (and calves, and hair, bunions, callouses, etc.) put together as if in prayer! this is batjay's idea and for the love of God, visit the site so you may get a glimpse of what's in our heads...and our feet as well =)
c'mon, be good now, just click on this link and you're in for a kick =)
and by the way, upcoming for next month is one juicy topic that everyone can be really interested in...versatility is the name of the game, and just to show you that the group can write on just about anything, brace yourselves for the topic on s*e*x... yes! i'll be posting an announcement on this and be ready for your brains to be titillated by these sexy prolific minds =)
Saturday, June 24, 2006
road signs
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yep, it's been a while...busy with call center work, haaayyy matatapos na rin, salamat!
but being part of that company isn't really so bad, learned to survive no matter how much i struggled to be productive (hanggang sa huli, inaantok pa rin ako...well, someone kept me busy during the day kaya ganon...sorry guys), keep quality standards high...sorry fiya, you have an old dog here, goodluck on your new recruit...
bpsi times, glad to be part of the group, thank you eli. hey, i hope you like the article, last hurrah, at least i stood by you til the last day despite the dwindling number of writers...salamat napagtiyagaan mo ko kahit laging late ako mag submit...will miss you too...you'll be a very good father, i know...i just know.
q-busters...will miss you...johnxion, me-an, eka, menjo, coi, ken, mikey, yula, david...o sige na, isama na si miam! you guys made life easier when graveyard shift never really suited my system...hey eka, love this song, perfect timing :-)
been oblivious to road signs lately...nahuli ako ng pulis sa edsa...TWICE IN A ROW...ask me how long the interval was... hmm? less than 2 minutes! hehehe...record breaker ba? first time, never again!!! violations? secret! hehehe...may studyante ako'ng nagbabasa, it's not what you think it is...and i reiterate, i have been very oblivious to life's road signs lately...di bale...i'm paying my ticket.
thank God, i'm leaving soon...my daughter's prepared, she'll come see me naman, so no problem there...a palmist told me i'm getting married to a filipino in the US, will have 2 kids...shux :) it's been awhile, jacinth would love to be an ate :) will be married within the next 4 years! oh baby, open your arms, i'll be there soon! que magkatotoo o hindi, i'm the maker of my own destiny, and this is exactly what i want :)
updates? soon :)
Sunday, January 22, 2006
10 sexiest men for 2006
to start off the year, here's a list of my 10- sexiest men... pure inspiration =)
10. Tony Manero, otherwise known as John Travolta. if you were not born yet to see that awesome movie Saturday Night Fever, you missed out on the sexiest man who ever walked Hollywood during the 70's. a man in double knit pants never looked so awesome on the dance floor.
9. Pretty Woman's heartthrob was every single woman's dream date. always the gentleman, always cool and suave...whew!
8. you're wondering what Rep. Francis Escudero is doing on this list? i find being fiery quite sexy =)
7. David Robert Joseph Beckham, Royal Madrid's first team player has star potential. sexy, undaunted...
6. Neo, John Constantine, Kevin Lomax, Nelson Moss...otherwise known as Keanu Reeves...who wouldn't fall in love with this versatile actor?
5. fine, i was smitten by his gorgeous smile...Jericho Rosales is handsomely filipino...
4. he's obnoxiously handsome, despite his flawed english...Jerry Yan made me watch Meteor Garden to the last episode...call me shallow, but i was gaga over him for quite a while...eto ang itsurang maginoo, pero medyo bastos =)
3. yeah, yeah, i got a penchant for weird looking guys...Johnny Depp is simply adorable in all of his movies...no matter how strange his roles were. that's exactly why he's sexy...he's unique, creative and weird =)
2. absolutely charming, intelligent and straightforward...aside from the fact that i can really get attracted to someone who has a way with ladles and chopping boards, Chef Jamie Oliver is one reason why Discovery channel is worth watching.
and first in my list is...
Ken Watanabe...you saw him in the Last Samurai, Batman Begins, and yes, Memoirs of a Geisha as the handsome Chairman. i am specially drawn towards men who exude an air of mystery...and yes, his expressive eyes never fail to melt my heart away. wish he can be mine =)
10. Tony Manero, otherwise known as John Travolta. if you were not born yet to see that awesome movie Saturday Night Fever, you missed out on the sexiest man who ever walked Hollywood during the 70's. a man in double knit pants never looked so awesome on the dance floor.
9. Pretty Woman's heartthrob was every single woman's dream date. always the gentleman, always cool and suave...whew!
8. you're wondering what Rep. Francis Escudero is doing on this list? i find being fiery quite sexy =)
7. David Robert Joseph Beckham, Royal Madrid's first team player has star potential. sexy, undaunted...
6. Neo, John Constantine, Kevin Lomax, Nelson Moss...otherwise known as Keanu Reeves...who wouldn't fall in love with this versatile actor?
5. fine, i was smitten by his gorgeous smile...Jericho Rosales is handsomely filipino...
4. he's obnoxiously handsome, despite his flawed english...Jerry Yan made me watch Meteor Garden to the last episode...call me shallow, but i was gaga over him for quite a while...eto ang itsurang maginoo, pero medyo bastos =)
3. yeah, yeah, i got a penchant for weird looking guys...Johnny Depp is simply adorable in all of his movies...no matter how strange his roles were. that's exactly why he's sexy...he's unique, creative and weird =)
2. absolutely charming, intelligent and straightforward...aside from the fact that i can really get attracted to someone who has a way with ladles and chopping boards, Chef Jamie Oliver is one reason why Discovery channel is worth watching.and first in my list is...
Ken Watanabe...you saw him in the Last Samurai, Batman Begins, and yes, Memoirs of a Geisha as the handsome Chairman. i am specially drawn towards men who exude an air of mystery...and yes, his expressive eyes never fail to melt my heart away. wish he can be mine =)
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