Sunday, June 24, 2007


i had an interesting conversation with my daughter last weekend, with her ending up crying as she expressed her sadness over the fact that her dad has introduced to her his new "friend". she didn't have any intentions of telling me this had i not broached the idea that her dad needs someone to be with. this didn't surprise me, but i was grief stricken that i can't be with my daughter during these woeful times. i understand how she feels, but i know that i, too, can hurt her in the same way.

i'm sorry baby that you have to grow up faster than you should. adults can be very selfish, don't you think? your coming to understand this will make you wiser and more careful with your decisions in life. i know that you know that i love you so much...the woeful times shall pass, so hang in there!

i've pictured you singing this song to your dad. you gotta let someone to love him and let go. he used to sing this, sang it beautifully (though i never liked his voice) and hence i learned to like it. i'm not sure if you remember the song, but here goes...

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses
You've been out ridin' fences,
for so long - now.
Ohh you're a hard one.
I know that you've got your reasons.
These things that are pleasin'you
Can hurt you somehow.

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able.
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table.
But you only want the ones
That you can't get.

Ohhhh you aint getting no younger.
Your pain and your hunger,
They're driving you home.
And freedom, ohh freedom.
Well that's just some people talking.
Your prison is walking through this world all alone.

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine.
It's hard to tell the night time from the day.
And you're losing all your highs and lows
aint it funny how the feeling goes

Why don't you come to your senses?
come down from your fences, open the gate.
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you.
You better let somebody love you.
(let sombody love you)
You better let somebody love you...ohhh..hooo
before it's too..oooo.. late.

Sarah Bolger in ''In America''
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Mec said...


am sure she'd understand better in time... that won't take away the pain of growing up, but it will at least give her the prespective to be able to move forward...

joyce said...

thanks mec :)
and i thought i had such a painful and unhappy childhood because we didn't have much in life. mas mahirap pala na mawalan ng ina sa tabi mo.

Sam said...

Hi Joyce,

I don't get the whole picture..did you guys just parted ways?I mean between you and husband?


joyce said...

hi Sam!

my daughter's dad and I separated in early 2004, divorced legally in late 2005.

i have no regrets because i learned from my mistakes. and guess what? I'M IN LOVE!!! :)

thanks for dropping by!