Thursday, November 16, 2006


today, i felt so distraught with how one student has been dealing with me. it's been 9 harrowing weeks, only because of him. one time he was suspended, the class he's in, all of a sudden, was totally different. this morning, i had to deal with his objectionable ways again, but this time, i knew i had it with him. i cried when the students were gone, i felt weary and frustrated.

so when i went home, i stopped by starbucks, grabbed a venti cafe americano with hazelnut, coupled it with a slice of lemon loaf and treated myself to a christmas songs cd entitled Santa Baby. it's got elvis presley, frank sinatra, nat king cole, tony bennett, ella fitzgerald, dean martin, diana krall, billie holiday, sarah mclachlan, etc. well, i bought it primarily because it's quite uncommon to find elvis in a compilation cd like this; second, i like the repertoire and the voices. so i parked in front of our house, turned up the volume of the player, and sat there sloshing my drink away. i relaxed my mind while i looked up the dark gray sky, and just enjoyed the music, the coffee, the pastry, and the time that i'm alone. when i was down to my last sip, i called overseas to my daughter, woke her up (she's going to school anyway) and told her how much i miss her, how much i want to hug her, hold her tight. told her i love her very much...heard her sleepy voice...a priceless moment...that mitigated the pain. i felt relieved.

here's the first cut in the cd. i want to share it with whoever. i like it of all the songs in that complation. it's called river.

It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don’t snow here
It stays pretty green
I’m going to make a lot of money
And then I’m going to quit this crazy scene
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
Teach my feet to fly high
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry
I tried hard to help me
No it wouldn’t be at ease
But it left me so naughty made me weak in the knees
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But I’m so hard to handle
I’m selfish and I’m sad
Now I gone and lost the best baby that I’ve ever had
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
Oh I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly high
Oh I wish I had a river
That I could skate away on
I made my baby say goodbye
It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

[ these lyrics found on ]


bh said...

from the desk of the president
(joyce jimenez fan club of the pacific northwest)

1. if this looks and sounds official, it's because it's issued by the president. so, for all intents and purposes, it is. (official, that is.) the course of official correspondence we will use the pronoun "we" because we represent the collective opinion and sentiment of the membership. so, if we make an egregious mistake or commit a blatant idiocy, as we are wont to do, blame it on the members.grammatical errors and spelling, blame them on the secretary. any manifestations of extreme brilliancy and extraordinary genius, I'll be presidential about it.

3.we noticed that your Grace,(sancho panza addressed his master, the immortal don quixote, as 'Your Grace' - so we will address Your Highness the same way ,most of the time)posted a video of Sarah McLachlan singing "River" and the happenstance didn't escape us. the same song is in the club's official cd WINTERSONG. there are similar things we like , after all. some members have said that maybe we like Sarah because of her good looks. that simply is not true- we adore her for her beautiful plaintive singing. she also looks very much like someone we used to work with, a long time ago. that person was probably the best looking female we ever worked with, but that's another story.
to debunk that theory, we bought another cd: diana krall's xmas cd and prove that we like her for all that jazz and not for her looks.(ok that didn't help very much) Your Grace bought a christmas cd. we bought a christmas cd. now, that qualifies as a coincidence which reminds us of an aphorism conveyed by Dr. No to James Bond: "Once is a happenstance, twice is a coincidence, but the third time..." (Ian Fleming)

4.for those members who wondered what the allusion was between Georgia O'Keefe and the lillies ( from the last meeting): Ms. O'Keefe painted lillies like nobody's business. when you look at her painting of a lilly, you feel pain piercing your heart and warmth flooding your loin.

5.we wonder if Your Grace would like to hike a segment of the A.T. with us. Your Grace should get a copy of Bill Bryson's 'A Walk In The Woods' to familiarize yourself with the A.T.

6.we noticed that Your Grace live in an area where devastating forces of nature frequently come to play. we advise you to be careful and watch your behind carefully. you should get the dvd "how to survive a hurricane with your good looks intact and find true love at the same time". it also comes titled " TWISTER" and stars helen hunt.

7.somewhere along the line and through the grapevine we learned that there is an attractive thespian or entertainer of some sort named joyce jimenez and we want to state where we always stand: we venerate the body of work and not the body.(we hope that that didn't come out wrong).
we may lust for the body but you'll never catch us mentioning it here. we are a literary group. we read Lolita in baghdad. maybe it was in Tehran. it was a little hard to concentrate when you hear the bombs go off, ever closer to your ass. we wish we could read Rebecca in London but our wherewithal prohibits that.

8. we want to be the first to greet you " Happy Thanksgiving". we wish you could come to the west coast for that holiday.we will be glad to tell you what we are grateful for , if you care to hear about it

yours as always

rain said...

So, bh, do you actually have a "site" where fans of Joyce gather? :P

BatJay said...

hey joyce! i hope by now you're cheered up and perky again. you should talk to jop.


Anonymous said...

there are always bumps on the road
whatever trip we take
in time, we become adroit at manuevering around or through them
but they are there and always had been
they seem bigger in the beginning but only in the beginning

a cousins' wife is a multi-awarded teacher in the east coast. numerous professional honors.
but huge implausible bumps in the beginning and immeasurable tears

a brother taught high school math in sacramento. kids gave him headaches. he laughs about it now everytime he tells me the story over beer
(he received his bs math in the philippines. attended u.p.)

his daughter (my niece) transferred to sacramento from quezon city science high school a few years ago. two years later she's in college on scholarship and they asked her to teach high school math at a local school. kids her age. terrified her.
she graduates next month with 2 majors in engineering. laughs when i say that all her awards were bought from k-mart on 2-for-one sale

a brother taught welding at junior college in canada. tough kids. they think the govt. owes them everything they ask for. laughs about it now over lots and frequent beer

without the bumps we lose our perspective of the journey

rain comes down in all manners

"into each life, some rain must fall"- ella fitzgerald

don't let the rain get you down


joyce said...

bh, thank you for heading the so-called fan club. it's amazing how the ideas flow out of you when you write, just like water in a stream. and happy thanksgiving too :) by the way, joyce jimenez, as you may know it, was coined after the actress joyce jimenez. my students called me that for reasons only they would know.

rain, come think...ohhhh :)

batjay, the famous batjay!!! thanks for visiting! yes, i'm quite better now. that's a great suggestion, would talk to jop :) salamat!

and dax...

will you walk with me through the rain? :) i doubt it if you'd do that. men nowadays are so not visible.

Anonymous said...

we'll mock water and fire


joyce said...

hmmmm i wonder what you mean by that

joyce said...

dax, are you saying that we'd make the impossible possible? hmmm interesting...

oh by the way, remember you said once before that you'll marry that a metaphor too?

Anonymous said...

not a metaphor


joyce said...

i really admire your audacity. but men, as i have observed, are generally audacious. forgive me, but i find your species weak and oftentimes selfish. ofcourse, there are exceptions. i wonder if you're one of them. write me in private so you'd hear me grumble and see how you argue with me.

Anonymous said...

"...and they lived happily ever after."

but first, they had to start the whole thing by arguing

interesting concept


joyce said...

RIGHT! so...have you chickened out yet? shoot me a private e-mail. i'm waiting.

joyce said...

dax, did i scare you? i'm sorry...

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Anonymous said...

dax exists for and only on this blog and for one reason only

the name dax was lifted off of a book and movie by harold robbins titled 'the adventurers'

when you first thought it was dax garcia, i found it amusing that a mother would actually name her son
after a harold robbins character. of, course she probably had a different source; and mothers everywhere still name their daughters 'betsy'.

if you read the book , you'll no doubt find and agree to one thing:

dax does not scare

joyce said...

so since you are a figment of this blog, the marriage proposal then is an intrepid statement from a devil-may-care writer...

i don't want to say anything further.

joyce said...

Young Amparo: What are they doing now?

Young Dax: I believe he is raping her. He rapes her, and she rapes him.

Young Amparo: Let's do it.

Young Dax: No! you are too young, and I think I have to kill you Afterwards., Dax doesn't scare huh?!?